What's the point? What can I do? Whatever I did, nothing gets out of it. I'm not trying hard enough? For every 2 steps I take, I'm forced to take back 4 steps!

Why the fuck did I survived the accident for? Just to be in a ditch all the same as before? Wait? How long more? Patience? How long have I been?

Fuck la

I did something today which I regretted so much but I guess one way or another it might happen. As much as I regret, I'm glad it happened this way and not something else worse than this.

I made my Baby Girl went into tears. Oh God... I just hope that, whatever happened, happened for good, for the best of us. She's the best thing in my life, ever. Although she look the most adorable when she was in tears, I won't ever want to see them again.

Baby Girl, I'm sorry, really. I'm not good in consoling but from the deepest of my heart, my best apologies, only to you...

And then the fight started.....

1. When I got home last night, my wife demanded that I take her someplace expensive.... So, I took her to a gas station.....

And then the fight started....


2. My wife and I are watching "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire" while we were in bed. I turned to her and said, "Do you want to have sex?" "No," she answered. I then said, "Is that your final answer?" She didn't even look at me this time, simply saying, "Yes." So I said, "Then I'd like to phone a friend."

And then the fight started....


3. Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, grabbed the dog, and slipped quietly into the garage. I hooked up the boat up to the truck, and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour. The wind was blowing 50 mph, so I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio, and discovered that the weather would be bad all day.

I went back into the house, quietly undressed, and slipped back into bed. I cuddled up to my wife's back, now with a different anticipation, and whispered, "The weather out there is terrible."

My loving wife of 10 years replied, "Can you believe my stupid husband is out fishing in that?"

And then the fight started ...


4. My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a nearby table. My wife asked, "Do you know her?"

"Yes," I sighed, "She's my old girlfriend. I understand she took to drinking right after we split up those many years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober since."

"My God!" says my wife, "Who would think a person could go on celebrating that long?"

And then the fight started.....


5. I took my wife to a restaurant. The waiter, for some reason, took my order first. "I'll have the strip steak, medium rare, please." He said, "Aren't you worried about the mad cow?"

"Nah, she can order for herself."

And then the fight started.....


6. A woman is standing nude, looking in the bedroom mirror. She is not happy with what she sees and says to her husband, "I feel horrible; I look old, fat and ugly. I really need you to pay me a compliment."

The husband replies, "Your eyesight's darn near perfect."

And then the fight started.....

Today was the best day of my life. She was so nice to me. Although it got me thinking, she might have done something silly behind me though. But, nobody are guilty until proven so.

I'm so much in love!

How do I do this? 1 main point of having so much hope in is "Love will prevail"

I've been trying as long as I can remember to communicate well with her, but I feel sad. Sad that I've yet to see her trying at all. I wouldn't know if she isn't for sure but from what my eyes see and my brains think, she doesn't. It's my heart that's keeping me calm.

My heart says she loves me a lot and it's just her nature that she doesn't talk much. At least because she has to babble in english instead of in mandarin which is I found out is kinda weird for her cause she speaks mainly in mandarin while I speak mainly in english.

Now, if only she will share with me her daily stuff, tells me her different experiences and all. This, will definitely helps us in making us closer.

-sigh-

I've never actually loved someone this much before. God, help me. Love, please dun end between us. I have no more feelings for anything else after this...

Came back 2 days ago and took the whole 2 days to settle all my unfinished business. Couldn't meet with my Huisan as she was busy with her matters so tomorrow the whole day is ours! God I miss her!

Anyway, here are some photos I took!





My baby cousin! Isn't she an adorable sight? :D



My 2 naughty cousins. This the clearest shot as they keep moving around when I wanted to take a photo of them. -,-



Found this mummy cat keep wondering in and out of the house. Took us a while to find out she actually brought her kittens in. My aunt had them taken out when she found them. The mummy disappeared later at night and returned the next day with another 3 kittens of different colours! I still don't know where these kittens in the pictures are till today after that night. :(



Called him "wabbit"! The fella died a few days after I took the picture. RIP :(







A&W! Waffles FTW! :D

And.... the pigs!





Now, if only the internet access there have matured enough, it's sure to be fun! :D

Batam's internet speed. Can't complain 'cause it's a free hotspot! although a bit badly placed. In the middle of a small forested area where it's warm during the day and itchy during the evening. Mosquitoes have a knack for this spot when I'm around. They rest never seem to scratch anything but I keep on scratching like a monkey in rage!