And here we are again, back at the "trying" to developed Batam island of Indonesia. The internet is slow as usual, trying to load a page seems like trying to load 64736436 pages simultaneously. I wonder why they never did any improvement or upgrades to it.

I now realised I can't wake up early if there's nothing to be done. Apart from watching the walls, there's nothing much that I can do here. Well, if seen vaguely. I'm still trying to discipline myself to do a regular workout to burn these fats of mine. Huisan been nagging about how fat I am (am I?) and I can't argue cause my tummy really is a lil' on a large side.

I miss that girl, my girl. Should I land myself with a job here, can she cope with me being away so far from here. She's independent and realistic but her refusal of promises is making me feel insecure.

If there's one thing I'm hoping so much for is grow old with her as husband and wife...

Do you know that your email address says so much about who you really are?

COMPLETE NAME EMAIL ADDRESSES
These are the people who are not afraid to show people who they really are, they are transparent, vocal and detailed, short of saying they are perfectionists. You can bet on them burning the midnight oil to finish what they started

FIRST NAME ONLY/ NICKNAME EMAIL ADDRESSES
These are the people who can speak out when the need arises, but not as vocal. They usually take time warming up to others, usually letting others be the one to figure them out first. That's why some people see them initially as aloof, but once you break the barrier, they can be your best friends.

INITIALS AND ABBREVIATION OF REAL NAMES EMAIL ADDRESSES
These are the people who are quite reserved, and usually have a close knit circle of friends. They are most comfortable opening up to only a number of people. They have varied likes and you need to come up with something interesting to get and hold their attention.
NAMES WITH NUMBERS
These people are sentimental and take special occasions to heart. They are usually passive but get the work done. They're like walking calendars and idealistic.

STRONG SOUNDING E MAIL ADDRESSES WITH TOTALLY NO CONNECTION TO THEIR REAL NAMES
These people see a subconscious need to come out strong-willed despite how people see them physically. They are the ones who need affirmation that they can survive the dog eat dog world and keep up with competition. They are very much concerned of their image in the eyes of others.

SWEET AS AN ANT / CUTESY EMAIL ADDRESSES
Obvious as it seems, these people want to project a sweet-as-a-daisy image to others. They love cute novelty things and are not lacking in knick knacks. They usually surround themselves with things that remind them of happy times and to feel secure. But don't let this fool you. Underneath is a fire waiting to be unleashed, and they adapt well to various environments.

EMAIL ADDRESSES WITH TOTALLY NO CONNECTION TO THEIR REAL NAMES, NEITHER IS IT STRONG SOUNDING OR SWEET
These are the people hardest to figure out. You'll never know what you're gonna be up against because they keep things to themselves. You will be surprised how much they know. They will never tell you outright that they already hate your guts because they can remain civil most of the time.

I'm the last one! And I do tend to keep things to myself and then get headache trying to solve it :(

it's a lil' wols but yeah, it's an epic

poor kitty =(

An intelligent and resourceful site about how men sees women and vice versa. Contrary to popular belief, men and women can be friends with no form of attractions needed. Well, let's get back to reality. Men will hump almost anything in their way. Funny I'm posting this as I'm a guy myself but I just want awareness for women who thinks they can trust a guy friend to be just a friend with no intentions hidden somewhere.

http://www.laddertheory.com/

Sally: We are just going to be friends, OK?
Harry: Great, friends. It's the best thing...You realize, of course, that we can never be friends.
Sally: Why not?
Harry: What I'm saying is - and this is not a come-on in any way, shape, or form - is that men and women can't be friends, because the sex part always gets in the way.
Sally: That's not true. I have a number of men friends and there is no sex involved.
Harry: No, you don't.
Sally: Yes, I do.
Harry: No, you don't.
Sally: Yes, I do.
Harry: You only think you do.
Sally: You're saying I'm having sex with these men without my knowledge?
Harry: No, what I'm saying is they all want to have sex with you.
Sally: They do not.
Harry: Do too.
Sally: They do not.
Harry: Do too.
Sally: How do you know?
Harry: Because no man can be friends with a woman that he finds attractive. He always wants to have sex with her.
Sally: So you're saying that a man can be friends with a woman he finds unattractive.
Harry: No, you pretty much want to nail them, too.
Sally: What if they don't want to have sex with you?
Harry: Doesn't matter, because the sex thing is already out there, so the friendship is ultimately doomed, and that is the end of the story.

So please, think about it. they send you home, they treat you nice, they claim to be such a nice friend, be warned... Listen when your boyfriend tells you a heads up. He cares for you more than you think he does

Not a very nice morning to begin with. Today marks the day I'll have nobody to feed, to lick me early in the morning, nobody to disturb me while I'm eating. My cat, Fluffy, died. He fell down from the window, 8 storey high.

I should have played with him when he came around making small noises when I entered the kitchen. He doesn't mew, always so silent. When he's in need of something, he'll just come and lick my face. He's like a younger brother to me.

Everyone in the family uses sibling connotation towards him. We treated him like part of the family, acknowledging him as a brother more than as a pet. Where could someone get a cat that doesn't bite or scratch or mew? The best temper I've ever observe in a cat. He can be pushed to an extreme corner and never even fight back. When he does something wrong and I come towards him, he'll pull back his ears and just keep quiet.

-sigh-

I hope he's happier now there in heaven among other cats.


In memories of Fluffy aka lapi 10012009. You'll always be remembered, will never be replaced... I love you, brother...

The 1st of January 2009 and I woke up at around 10am! Looks so much like I'm gonna have a good year ahead of me and I'm gonna make sure of it. =)

Let's see, new year resolution. Normally when my friends ask me this, I'd say,

"1600 x 1200"

It denotes to screen resolution and to date, I'd be the only one smiling while the rest would have this puzzled look on their faces. It's how things in my world works and I'm getting used to it.

This year I wanna try make it different. Let's see what the EOY would be...