the feelings of getting lost soon is creeping up on my silently. at this moment now, my mind ain't working in a sane manner. some part of it is running simulations of future events, some is running thoughts of mth end event, some running all around thoughts of my baby girl.

something happened few days back that would have happened later on in life. it's just a lil' earlier than predicted and honestly, I'm partially ready for the outcome. I know one day I will have to run solo without anyone alongside to motivate me on. how long I can last, God knows but one thing for sure, I am very much glad I managed to gather quite a handful of important skills and knowledge.

I'm on a self motivated spree now and I know as long as I keep only the positive portion and remain deaf on the negative portion, I can keep up my present performance.

that aside, why is it that until now I'm still feeling insecure of things? to be precise, matters of the heart. it is said that the unsaid feelings are the most powerful of it while the said ones are empty words. I just hope it is that way.

you'll be the last, if this doesn't work, i dun wish to get involve in another...