I'm back to the point when I need to knock the entire blk for a single sale... wtf! I can't walk a lot now than before the accident and I have to force myself to walk from top to the btm. *sigh*

One thing I realised is, should you have no talent in a particular field, whatever you do, however hard you try, you can make it sure, but only to a mediocre level. It's this thought now that's making me depressed. All this while I'm lying to myself to go through and someday maybe I will be pretty good at it. Problem is, my thoughts rejecting my words of lies and I'm pretty depressed.

Consulting in friends doesn't help as people only comments and advised on what they see and feel. Guess I need professional help =/